I guess this just occurred to me since i’m currently snowed in, but as a kid, I used to love snow, playing in the snow, the anticipation of getting school off and the all day hot chocolate video game/ movie marathons.  But at 23 I now have worry about road conditions and work cancellations.  I have no problem driving in the snow, i’m just terrified of you, yeah you in your 99 civic  with worn out tires whose gonna fish tale into me because you think you’re God and want to beat the line at chipotle. So i try to avoid the roads on days like today, but I now have something called responsibilities, and if I can’t get to work, I have to take vacation, and that blows.

This got me thinking about other things I don’t care for much anymore.  Birthdays and Christmas.  As a kid, these were the 2 best days of the year, but as an adult I always hope that someone’s going to surprise me with that one awesome gift I always wanted. Only problem is, is that if i wanted it, i probably already bought it. Not to mention I now have a responsibility to buy others gifts, which can be stressful.  Also, birthdays just remind me that i’m one year passed being able to follow my dreams and one year closer to a life of monotony and boredom, and ever since I moved out of my college place with my friends, I avoid having a party cause I really don’t know who i’m close enough to invite anymore.

So I guess for now i’ll just dread the snow, the holiday’s and my birthday. Maybe one day I’ll be able to relive those feelings watching my kids love the days I now dread.

Ps. On those days, the constant thinking about how it doesn’t feel the same anymore makes things even worse.